Mud in my eyes

I haven’t ridden for a while. My calf muscles decided to take a vacation without warning. I couldn’t support my weight never mind push it on a bike.

So now I have 7 days with weak muscles and incredibly sore hand/wrist/elbow joints to try and scrabble back some of the shape I was in. I am scared to start in case I DNF. But I have to start so I will. But if you pass a fat girl pouring with sweat, it will be because she’s going through menopause and not because of the effort of riding 40km. It will be because she’s hurting and not because she’s not fit but because her body sometimes goes into attack mode for no reason at all.

I don’t know how I’m going to do this. But I’m going to damn well try.